Um...why am I starting a blog?

First of all, can we change the word “blog?” There’s something humiliating about that word. I’m embarrassed to admit I have a blog. I confess to people about this like I have an STD. Not that there is anything wrong with having an STD. I read that Jennifer Garner has herpes. Anyway, this blog isn’t about herpes or Jennifer Garner unless Jennifer Garner gives me herpes. Then yeah, of course, I will be dedicating my blog to that. But that hasn’t happened…yet. 

I’m a 34 year old woman living in Los Angeles. I’m single, but I do want to get married and have kids. I’m an actor with a somewhat successful commercial career. As much as I love selling Southwest Airlines and Clorox, there is something more that I want to be doing. In the meantime, I have this crippling fear of being judged and then not being liked. I’m afraid to expose myself and display who I really am, because I think the real me is too much for anyone. Too much for my future husband. Too much for my career. Too much for you. 

Wait…so why am I writing a blog again? 

Well, for those reasons. I want to overcome this false timidness that I have acquired, and defeat this fear that has been coloring every aspect of my life. 

And I don’t want to do it alone. 

So let’s do it. I want to share with you.. my life, my fears, my dreams. 

Maybe at the end of all this, I’ll be able to embrace myself just a tad bit more. And maybe you will too.